I “walked” back to the party at my friend’s home where two of my closest friends were outside playing catch with a grapefruit. As I approached, I could feel light all around me and saw my friends looking at it. Then one of them threw the grapefruit at me. Being dead, I didn’t try to catch it. But it hit me in the chest, and I suddenly realized that I was visible…and alive. For the next few weeks, I did everything I could, including taking massive doses of niacin, to return to normal. But I could not forget the real world and that the world I had inhabited my whole life was not real. Since then, I have spent the rest of my life seeking that real world, the “Big World”, with sporadic and fleeting results.